That's right. I am an official Teacher Candidate. I have started my professional year with the BYUH College of Human Development. I spend every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at Hau'ula Elementary teaching and working with my 6th grade students. Like this whole becoming a teaching this is for real now. They call me Miss Davis and everything. It took me a while to get used to it, especially because there's a girl named Jessica in my class. Every time my CT would say her name I would turn around and look like she was actually calling for me. It is weird... Weird, but wonderful. I mean I correct homework, administer tests, discipline students, run copies in the teacher work room and everything. I'm legit. Too legit to quit some might say...
I admit, I've had kind of a rocky start. Not to sound like a snot, but I struggle when I'm not relatively good at something right away. My CT (Cooperating Teacher) put me straight to work and of course, I've never been in the classroom as an actual teacher, so it took me a while to figure out what I was doing. Now, I am not complaining. I'm super grateful for it. My CT is awesome and my skills and abilities have improved already. I'm just saying, I didn't immediately feel super comfortable and capable. In fact, I felt rather inadequate and like I was struggling to keep my head above water. I've spent so long learning about principles and psychological concepts and pedagogy that all of a sudden having to put them into action was a little overwhelming. Not a happy feeling for me. Plus, it's always harder for me to work with older students. They have attitude problems because they are at that awkward in between stage. So my not being perfect right away at being a teacher coupled with snarky sixth graders made things kinda hard.
With that said, I'm finally to the point where I'm loving my class. As I've relaxed around the kids they've relaxed around me. Wednesday was my first good day and we actually had a lot of fun together. I'm happy to finally be settling in and I can tell this is going to be one heck of a year. All I have to do is get used to balancing my O & P with classes (4 to be exact), work and my church calling. My schedule is hectic to say the least, but I'm going to work hard, endure to the end and complete this program with flying colors. I won't let myself do anything less.
Excited doesn't even begin to describe how I'm feeling.
(Hau'ula Elementary School)
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